so i think i pulled a muscle in my back. my left lat actually. i think i pulled it at tech crew lifting pieces of scenery. i even have a pretty stretch mark on my back. i'm telling you...it's hot. all the ladies think so. it hurts to do just about anything, which will be awesome for the all day lighting call on saturday and sunday. but anyway. who's excited about the debate tomorrow night? this guy is. big party up here to watch it. all right, well, i'm off to do my lighting diary...that's right, my lighting diary. good night boys and girls.

i've been here before a few times
and i'm quite aware we're dying
and your hands they shake with goodbyes
and i'll take you back if you'd have me

so here i am- i'm trying
so here i am- are you ready

come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always

and i'll miss your laugh- your smile
i'll admit i'm wrong if you'd tell me
i'm so sick of fights- i hate them
let's start this again for real

so here i am- i'm trying
so here i am- are you ready
so here i am- i'm trying
so here i am- are you ready

come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always
touch you, feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always

i've been here before a few times
and i'm quite aware we're dying

come on let me me hold you, touch you, feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always
touch you- feel you
always
kiss you, taste you all night
always

so i spent the evening down at the college ministry house serving pancakes to all of the drunk people, and let me tell you, it was freaking hilarious. but, as it is currently 2:45 am... i'm going to bed, you enjoy.

so i'm at college. we're having a lot of fun. i have great roomates, a great ra, great friends on the floor, and more great friends downstairs. the world seems to be in the right place. i finally feel like i'm where i need to be, doing what i want to do. we hang out and study together, even though most of us have completly different coursework. i had my first day of class today...the artist in society, survey of theatrical design, and my technical production lab. i have stage lighting and tech production classes tomorrow. this weekend we're going to play disc golf up the street, and maybe find some other stuff to do. the people in my program are really cool, and i'm going to a party at the lighting professor's house on sunday if i can get a ride somehow. well, anyway, i suppose that i should do my reading, so have a good night and keep the rock and roll alive my friends.

"you know what's wrong with you, miss whoever-you-are? you're chicken. you're afraid to stick out your chin and say, 'okay, life's a fact.' people do fall in love. people do belong to each other. because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness. you call yourself a free spirit, a wild thing, yet you're terrified that somebody's gonna put you in a cage. well, baby, you're already in a cage and you built it yourself. and it's not bound on the east by somali land or on the west by tulip, texas. it's everywhere you go. because no matter where you run, you're always going to end up running into yourself."

ok so it's time to do some serious updating here. i'm getting ready to leave for school. that's in two days. and it about time, i am so tired of being the only one still home. i start classes next wednesday and i have all theatre classes. i've been reading some of the material that we're going to be doing in my lighting class, and i'm hoping it's not as bad as it sounds. i have to keep a diary of the way light affects me over the course of the quarter. i haven't talked to my roomates in a while, hopefully we'll have everything. whatever. so i went to penn state on friday, and stayed over until sunday afternoon. jenni and i had a really good time. we just hung out, and eventually talked about things. i think we're in a good place, which means i have some peace of mind about it...which hasn't happened for oh, two months or so. but yeah, at school, i'll post more, as i will always be on the internet. have a good night kids.

i really love being ignored, really, there is nothing in this world that i appreciate more.

ok, new blog name, new color, hopefully new links when i remember how to do it, and also hopefully, a new start at a hopelessly neglected blog. i now have instant internet access and will remember to post at least twice a week. i have so much to write, but don't really want to do it now. i'm seriously going to write out a three page entry about the summer, and post it here, but again, maybe not. ok, well my friends, mis compadres, goodbye and goodnight