i feel like i have mono.


however, i can very much attest to the fact that i have not been making out with anyone.

and suprisingly, i have not shared beverages with anyone.

thus, the confusion.

maybe i'm just tired.
continually.

do you want to know something interesting?


it's a lot easier to have resolve before having to face the situation.

once you confront it, it's a whole different ball game.

it's like switching from four-square on the playground to tennis at wimbledon

that's right. four-square to wimbledon.

shit.

a year in the life

so it's been a year. school is over except for three exams. but on tuesday at 3:30 i will have officially completed the first year of college. it's hard to believe. people younger than me have graduated from high school and the seniors from my freshman year are now out there in the real world. it kind of puts things into perspective. i know that i've been pretty vague about how things have gone this year, but i think i have the time to actually sit down and do a recap. this year has been one of the toughest, but best experiences of my life. it is truly amazing the things that you learn about yourself in a year. i've done seven show assignments, one hundred and eighty hours of work in the scene shop, designed a scene shop, designed the lighting for a show (theoretical) met a huge number of people, missed almost the same amount of people, learned who i enjoy working with, learned what i enjoy working on, learning my strengths, my weaknesses and more things that i can't even list here. i've realized that i both can't wait to be home, and i can't wait to be back at school, because we move to the next level as theatre professionals. i'm learning that all of the doubts i've had all year are ok, and that i will be able to resolve these things as i go through school. this will be the hardest thing i ever have to do, but if i play my cards right, i can learn to do anything i want to and get a job almost any where. to all of my friends that i've had to blow off over the course of this year, i'm sorry. i want you to know that i have missed you and i can't wait to see you and to catch up. also know that i don't want to lose touch again and that i'm grateful you haven't started to hate me because i haven't talked to you. to my new friends, thank you for an amazing year and here's to the years ahead. on that note, good night.