as tiring, and painful as dance rehearsal is, i am truly beginning to enjoy the wonders of dancing in musical theater. it's becoming more and more fun. i'm really learning a lot, and i'm considering learning tap as soon as i get time. it would be so much easier to understand if stupid jason fuller and tony would understand that they're not going to get into amanda's pants and just let the rest of us enjoy the dancing. besides, jason already has a girlfriend, what's that about? but such is every experience involving jason fuller, who thinks that his clapping will bring people to order as opposed to getting a firm smack upside the head, which i am seriously considering doing one of these days. it would make up for the day that i was supposed to "fight" with him after king and i rehearsal for hitting on kim, and then badmouthing nick about it. such a dumb little boy.... so technically i'm supposed to be studying for my math test and writing my dbq for history, but i'm here instead, and now realizing that, i'm going to go pull an essay about the conservative nature of herbert hoover and the liberal nature of fdr out of my ass, and it's going to happen in a fourty minute tme span. oh yeah...i'll update you to let you know how it went. farewell for now.
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well, it's almost been a week since i last updated, and i guess it's about time. this week has been one of many strange occurances. i'm about ready for everything that's been going on to be over. life is just too stressful to deal with raging hormones and emotions. for those of you who know what i'm talking about, here it is...i'm tired of beating around the bush on all of my emotions. i've said befor that i'm just going to go with the flow, and now i think i mean it. whatever happens is going to happen, and now that i know they're not schtupping, i've got nothing to worry about. we had vocal rehearsal today, and i must say that i'm going to enjoy all of the music in this show. starting rehearsals reminds me of how much i miss when i'm not involved with a show, and i really think that this is something i want to do with my life. these days i sit around and wonder what i'm going to do with my life. what is there for me? where do i go after i leave the relative stability of being at home. where do we all go from here? i have not idea, but i'm getting a bit deep for this hour of the night.
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and, back to the blog. i've been wondering why i get myself into situations that i can't get out of. it's kind of like bono. i let the emotions that i think i have under control, get out of control. the thing is, i know when this happens, and how to stop it, but i just don't. seriously, i think that the chance of something happening gets stuck in my head, on the repeat cycle. i'm so afraid of confrontation, that my head comes up with every possible situation and then trys to deal with it. usually it skips over the bad outcomes. which doesn't prepare me for reality in the least. valentine's day is fairly depressing, especially when the person you kind of wouldn't mind being with may soon be schtupping someone else. but such is life, and it's not healthy for me to make the first move on that one, because that would make things all the less enjoyable. that's all for this quarter of eight pm.
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so, i think some of my friends have no respect for me as a person. i want everyone of you to know that, no matter how close (or not close) we are, i am always here for you. i'm always willing to talk to you about anything that you're having troubles with. a lot of you, when i've offered help, say that i wouldn't understand what you're going through. trust me i will. i may seem like a pretty sheltered kid, but i've had just about everything that can happen to me, happen. whatever you need, whenever, i will give you any advice, any wisdom, or just the listening ear that you need. never think that you can't trust me because i'm a guy and you're a girl or whatever. my best frineds all of my life have been girls and i'm not some asshole that's going to go and tell the world about your problems if that's what you want. i may not be an expert in life, and i sure as hell can't solve my own problems, but i'm trained to help other's deal with theirs. remember that i'm here for you if you need anything, and that you can trust me. yeah, that's what i needed to day.
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so i just realize that my settings had me on pacific time, and that was why the publishing times were all three hours off. man, sucks for me.
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so, as usual i've decided to write on my blog instead of writing my english paper on why shylock is a villian. why is shylock a villian? maybe we'll never know. i hate english, and i have a science fair project to do. sucks for me, but i'll probably write the paper at about nine tonight, such is life. i don't know why i get on to write stuff, there's really not anything else to write about.

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so i haven't written in a while and i thought that it's time to update. so today will go down in history as the the first time i've punched a brick wall. and let me tell you...it hurts. but perhaps i should explain. i lost the election for key club president. i'm glad that dan lynch is now the president, and he had a much better speech than i..but i don't deal well with disappointment right away. it only takes the release of my energy to get over it and understand that there's nothing i can do about it and that came in the middle of first period.i went to the bathroom and punched a wall. it's mighty therapeutic, but i'm telling you that it hurts like the dickens and the knuckles bleed very easily. but, such is the healthy release of unhealthy energy. so, tomorrow is another day, and thus i'll treat it as such. if i want to lead a normal helathy life, i need to live with healthy habits.
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so it's saturday night and once again i'm sitting on my computer, writing in my diary. i'm glad people told me about this whole diary thing, because otherwise i would be sitting around on a saturday night. i wish i had some friends that took the iniative to do something, becuase every once in a while, i don't feel like doing it. oh, such is life. so....sitting here on saturday night. i started talking to this girl online from california because she saw my name on imood or something and it turns out she lives in the same town that i used to. yes i did live in california for those of you wondering, what the sam hill is he talking about. that would be the reason that no one in lakewood has any recollection of me from before third grade. i lived in new hampshire, pennsylvania, california and westlake before coming to csilla's grandparent's house. the wonderful world of travel. blah. i have church tomorrow and it's really starting to not do anything for me. i mean i like the people in youth group and sunday school, but going to service just doesn't cut it anymore. i don't know why, but being a methodist just isn't helping me spiritually. and no liz, i'm not going to join your "sweet" church. well off to bed at ten thirty on saturday...g'night.
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so that whole hating theater thing, is a lie. i spent the entire day freaking out, for a whole lot of nothing. i freaked out even more right before the audition, and then made a fool of myself, as i'm prone to do. "hi! i'm greg falcione!" bleah. i think i did fairly well. god i hope josh murphy gets the bishop... it would have been easier to play off of him. oh well. i feel good, or as my imood says... "energized". i had no idea that there were so many different emotions that a person could go through. however "argh" is not listed. i decided to suggest it was the "breakdown of the human spirit" which i feel fits. today is kulma's birthday, and i'd like to congragulate him on turning seventeen. so my friends, until monday, and dance, farewell.
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