how am i feeling?: argh
music: the ballad of bilbo baggins- leonard nimoy (aka spock)

so it takes an evening at my friends combined with a bacon and cheddar omlette, and conversation with abbey to make me need to vent about my woes to you online. at one point i think i jokingly called abbey a ho and she said, "no, you're a ho". and i realized that yes...i am. i am the the single biggest ho that i know, minus that i'm just a loser ho that just dates people but never really does the things that make one a ho per say. i just have dated a lot of people, and one, maybe two have had any really substance to them. like...being an actual relationship. i just become attracted to people, and cling to that for a really long time and either something happens or it doesn't, and that's that. but the thing that's worse is that at times there can be more than one person and i get all confused and lose sleep trying to figure things out and how to put my head on straight, and that usually doesn't work out either. but you know, whatever. i don't know how to change that, and if i did, i ould have already done it. so now it's too late. if you can think of anything, there's a link at the top of the blog to email me. do it. and tell me. because that would really make my life easier if i could just figure this damn thing out, because it's now really bothering me. ok. enough ranting about my petty problems. there's enough drama in this world without me adding my own to the mix. need to get stuff ready for marching band at cedar point tomorrow. goornight.