ugh, five-thirty in the morning. exactly twenty-four hours since the time i woke up. and there's still more to go. i cannot for the life of me get my lighting technology project to work. we have to run the whole show live on submasters and i can't get the submasters to do the same thing every time. i started working at ten-thiry and stopped about twenty minutes ago because otherwise i was going to throw something at the console. i'm sleeping in the workroom tonight (well, for an hour or so) and talking to kevin when he gets in. i don't understand what i'm doing wrong. after six and a half hours i have about a third of my song done. that's awful. and of course the light lab is signed out starting at ten this morning until we have class on wednesday. i don't know when i'm going to get this done. fuck.

not only have i been having fun programming, but i've had the pleasure of having a ton of shit on my mind that is making me stress out way more than i ever do. i found out that my props class meets at the same time as lighting tech next quarter, and it probably won't work out to move the class. and on top of that, because i want to leave early for camp... i won't be able to do the final project in lighting tech anyway. unless i go for supervisor training, figure out a way to get back to cincinnati so that i can program all of that next week. do the project that saturday, and then get back for the second week of staff training. ri-donkey-diculous.

well, i'm going to sleep in the chair in here for a while. good night.