there are days when i sit back and think about everything that's going on in my life, and i wonder what the hell it's all about. i've realized that most of my friendships, especially the ones that i consider to be with my closest friends are not what i need in my life. i feel like their friendship is only there when no one else is around. the only thing out of these people's mouths in regard to me are insults, or they talk about me behind my back. the thing is, is that i would trust these people with my life, and do anything for them. their friendship is that important to me. i also feel like they feel the same way, but don't know how to keep everything real. the thing that i need in a friendship is for my friends to be completely honest in their friendship with me. don't bs it around other people, and then hang out with me on the weekend. or, quite the contrary, don't pretend to be my friend, and then completely ignore me outside of school. i want everything to be real between us. if you're reading this, and you feel that anything applies to you, it very well may. don't think that i'm mad at you. i just want to be completely honest with everyone right now. i ask you if you feel that you need to, be honest with me too. tell me where i stand with you, because i really don't know right now. thank you for dealing with my burning angst. email me (skaterdude1501@aol.com) or call me, or just freaking talk to me.
gredge