and, back to the blog. i've been wondering why i get myself into situations that i can't get out of. it's kind of like bono. i let the emotions that i think i have under control, get out of control. the thing is, i know when this happens, and how to stop it, but i just don't. seriously, i think that the chance of something happening gets stuck in my head, on the repeat cycle. i'm so afraid of confrontation, that my head comes up with every possible situation and then trys to deal with it. usually it skips over the bad outcomes. which doesn't prepare me for reality in the least. valentine's day is fairly depressing, especially when the person you kind of wouldn't mind being with may soon be schtupping someone else. but such is life, and it's not healthy for me to make the first move on that one, because that would make things all the less enjoyable. that's all for this quarter of eight pm.
gredge